Confession time…

I know this is going to sound weird…  I am actually relieved to find out I have diabetes.  Why? Because now I know that it wasn’t “just a lack of will power,” there is a real medical reason which explains the way I’ve been feeling.

I wasn’t imagining it:  I really was fighting against my own body in my attempts to improve my fitness.

I will also admit that I’ve arrived at this point, in part, because of some bad lifestyle choices and in part because of a genetic predisposition.  Everyone in my immediate family is large and about half are diabetic.  Except one skinny brother which none of us can quite figure out why he’s the lucky one.  sigh

I’m relieved because now I know that it is going to be easier from this point forward.  Things are going to get better.  As soon as the meds start doing what they are supposed to do, I will be in a better position to move toward a healthier me.

I want a book deal!  And a Speaking Contract!

I tell ya, when I’m all fit and healthy and dancing again, I want to share my story in every possible way!  I want to tell others that it is not hopeless.  That it is possible to go from absolutely on the brink of a “Health Apocalypse” to being a fit, happy healthy person.

I want to be like Jared, the subway guy!  By the way, if you have not read his book, I highly recommend it.  The first time I read it, I cried.  Literally.  Because I could relate to his struggle.  I had to stop reading and wipe away the tears before I could continue.  I hope to meet him one day and get him to autograph my copy of his book.  That would be so cool.

I want to be on Oprah!  I want Ellen and I to be best buds! Light’s, camera, speaking tours with tumultuous applause! Yeah, right, like that’s gonna happen!

I probably won’t get a book deal or end up touring the country talking about my own journey, but it would be nice wouldn’t it?  Uh-oh!  Tony’s doing that “digression” thing again.  Brace yerself loyal readers, this post might get Read the rest of this entry →